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I set up my other blog and I love it but I find the idea of having to actually do something everyday daunting. I know you only live once and live life to the fullest and all that but sometimes it's nice to sit in your jammies all day and treat yourself to a whole box of Krispy Kremes and shitty free movies on demand. I'm still going to try because i really do like the idea.

On another note I've been fascinated by the idea of taking a gap year lately.I just want to try to do things for a while. I'm sick of feeling like im in preparation for something. I just want to do it. I've been looking into the peace corp. and to volunteer with them, you have to commit at least 8 months. It sounds like something I could do. I also want to travel as well, just ride across america, setting up a tent when I'm tired, meeting people, exploring. It's scary to think about. I kind of just want to be a hobo.

Feeling sad Bookey Bear? Listen to these

These are songs that never fail to just make me happy

Take It Easy by The Eagles- this is just nice and easy and reminds me of summers in a hammock drinking lemonade even though I've never done that before...
http://youtu.be/UI3F687SsoU

How Deep Is Your Love by The Bee Gees- Anything from them is generally fluffy and light and this is just lovely. The world is just fill with people that ARE trying to bring us down. They SHOULD just let us be. How deep is your love???
http://youtu.be/XpqqjU7u5Yc

Shake Senora by Pitbull ft. Sean Paul and T-Pain- this song just sounds like summer
http://youtu.be/XKRSfcAORYI

I Think You Know by Julia Nunes- I was sad the other night and it was a sadness that i wanted to wallow in and this song came on Pandora. I had to be changed immediately
http://youtu.be/x6nVGm_0DPE

The Debt by Julia Nunes- More Nunes because she just makes me happy. This song lovely. It's all ukes and tongue clucking and raspberries. And the lyrics are funny too. All in all a very wonderful song\
http://youtu.be/_itJ5cVQjeU

Boombastic by Shaggy- I wish somebody called me a Boombastic Fantastic Lover...
http://youtu.be/iAM0eqdzjYY

Home by Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros- Two people in love. Why wouldn't that make you happy
http://youtu.be/rjFaenf1T-Y

Knee Deep by the Zac Brown Band ft. Jimmy- this song is laying on the beach or in Kara's back yard tanning over the summer.
http://youtu.be/6O_g0N6typM

Just a Friend by Biz Markie- Can you listen to this without imitating him?
http://youtu.be/9aofoBrFNdg

Ring of Fire by Johnny Cash- I had an old boyfriend that use to sing this to me. Apparently it was the first country song integrate that tex-mex style,with the trumpets. I always thought that was interesting because they go so well together.
http://youtu.be/9aofoBrFNdg

We Will All Be Changed by Seryn - It's about looking forward and being ok with that.
http://youtu.be/zKx45wKC3FY

Dinosaur Bones

I'm going to share a story because it is the funniest most tragic story you will ever you hear in your life.

Me and my friend were hanging out at the grain in laurel taking pictures on day. I looked down and say what I thought was just some piece of bark. So I picked it up and it looked like it had teeth in it but I was still certain that it was just part of a tree. I pick it up and I'm like " Look Kara, I found a Dinosaur Jaw". So we take it home with us and play with it. We even pretend to shot at each other going "pashoo pashoo, yall going down" in our Kevin Hart voices. Then Kara's mom sees this thing and she says " That's got to be a deer jaw or something. You guys should probably stop playing with it." We don't listen but then Kara takes it to school and shows it to her science teacher who confirms that it was in fact the jaw of a cow.

For about three days I ran around playing with a cow jaw and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I am uncomfortable with this.

Waiting like a Lady

I really don't recall the last time I had my period. I'm pretty safe with sex and have taken numerous pregnancy test, all negative, so I know it's not that. Beside I feel like I would just know if there was another human being growing inside of me. I should probably make a doctors appointment but who has time for that?

Things like this make me hate being a woman, when I know I shouldn't. My boyfriend can run around putting his dick in anything, while i have to wait and wish for the pang of a cramp, the unhingededness that comes with a mood swing, a stain in my pants. I'm not even really worried about being pregnant though because I'm certain I'm not. This is just one thing a man never has to deal with.

I hate my uterus. If I didn't have a uterus, I could freely wander the earth without having to even consider i might start leaking bodily fluids, so maybe i should grab something to catch it; I would never have to worry about cramps, feeling bloated and disgusting, craving carbs and becoming some Pamprim stereotypical poster girl. I hate that I have to take a pill everyday so it doesn't start a baby garden in it's spare time. I hate that it's basically what makes me a women and it constantly causes me pain.

My uterus is even decorated with lovely polyps. My uterus has bled for 3 months straight before, Then for the next couple of months I'm completely dry begging again for blood.

I should love being a woman. Women are beautiful. We are the gentleness of the world. We were made with softer skin and kinder hearts. We feel everything. We are connected to the Earth in a way that men can never be because we create life. It's so beautiful. I know it's not a woman's job to have a baby but it is a privilege. I just wish it wasn't so hard. But I guess that why we were made strong as well.

I am an emotional creature made me love being a girl. I watch this when I feel like this.

Talentless

I have passion. Loads upon loads upon loads. What I'm unsure of is talent. All I want to do is tell you stories. I want you to see something you haven't before. I want to explore humanity through my stories. People say it's a gift though. One I'm not sure I've been given. I'm not fishing for complements. Actually if you give them to me, I wont believe you and most likely stare at you awkwardly until you go away. I'll probably say thank you but still be weird about it and make my voice move around to much from being uncomfortable. Complements about my writing generally make me feel weird because I never believe them. Mostly I always see mediocracy in myself, especially my writing.

Maybe you see the irony in this though. Not only am I writing about being a bad writer, I'm putting it on the Internet. Even though I think it's totally crap my writing is something I will always have some weird sadistic desire to share with the world.

Enjoy the piles of poop I leave across the web.

Why I Love You So Very Very Much

I've been wanting to write about God because it seems everyone I talk to has some unclear, wondering relationship with the spiritual. Faith has always been a constant struggle for humanity. I think this due to that fact that we all are conditioned to do too much.

Relax. You have a soul. You are the spiritual. Everything you need to find is inside of you. Stop pondering and searching and let it guide you.

You feel the connection between us all and between yourself and the world too, don't you? The emotions I feel when someone is hurt or happy or lost or in need show me that your well being is my well being. I need you to feel good so I can too. Everyone has some sense of that. We are all here to help another find peace.

This goes even further. No one like to see destruction of the earth because it is part of us. We are one with the earth and the universe. Further more we are one with god. God is not some bearded man sitting on a cloud judging everyone. He is us. No one is in control of the Universe . No one created the Universe. The Universe just is; constantly renewing and rebirthing it self. It's a cycle that we are all part of. We find peace through letting it be. We must stop trying to be in control all the time.